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Month: June, 2016

But still I don’t want to be the needy girlfriend

Do you give love just to take love? Like, do I want to see you because I want to spend time with you or because I know that you want to spend time with me? I’d say it is purely because I want to see you, because you make me feel good. It is not for you – it is for me. So actually, love is really selfish. It is an addiction. I need you. And I don’t really care whether you need me or not. Oh well, I do, because if you wouldn’t need me, say if you’d want to break up with me, I think I would not be able to see that from your perspective. That’s where the selfishness comes in. Even if I know that it might be better for you to not be with me and that you need time for yourself I want to see you and I want you in my life – for my own sake not for yours.

Well, I think that I can see things from your perspective sometimes, as long as I know that you still want me. Because if you don’t, if you don’t complement me or kiss me or feel that you have to talk to me I don’t know what I would do. I want you to need me.

So it is not about mutual love. It is about mutual need. A mutual addiction and what we both (hopefully) do is to fuel it meaning that you need to spend time with you and you need to spend time with me. Ok?

The end of exams – 1 week 1 day

Soon soon soon soon soon soon soon soon soon soon soon soon soon but yet so far away.